DISCONNECTION – Hershey Hilado
For the things we hold dearly, disconnecting yourself from something is a very hard fact we all need to face. Especially if it has shaped you and contributed so much to the person you are today.
Patience taught me the lesson that not all the time you have to run faster than everybody else, your growth, your time, and your destination is not always similar to those who succeeded before you. You must not forget that you are YOU, you are not them. The lessons and the adversities you needed to face are different to what others experienced which means you are not going to succeed just like them. You will succeed exactly the way you suppose to be given what you’ve learned from your own.
You have to take your journey according to what feels right for you. I use to think “I want to achieve the success that person achieved in a few years time” bla bla bla..
And I realized my maturity and my success has nothing to do with any of them, it has everything to do with me alone.
I started with a mission to take care of my family and when they are well enough to take care of themselves, what now?
I realized this is now my defining moment. This is when I’ll make the hard choices of letting go and letting in.
This is the time when disconnection has to occur both from the things that do not serve me, from the things that I worked hard for, learning when to give up something to give life to the new and even bigger things and most importantly where I should be.
In the last 8 weeks, every weekend I lock myself in my room. I only want to hear the silence, read, sleep and hear the birds out the window. The more I do this the more I realize I needed to be somewhere else, the more I realize why I am one of the fortunate ones to understand the meaning of my own life. A lot of things has been blurry in the last couple of weeks, it’s highly frustrating but it is also one of the most creative times, for that is when I am forced to question everything, to look at everything and to consider fuckin’ everything and choose one pursuit.
My encouragement to you is if you feeling kinda shit, take the moment, embrace it and go deep. All this looking back in your past mistakes is fucking up with your neck, so start thinking of what is the next step you MUST take that will entirely change the result of your tomorrow.
For as long as you are breathing there is always a way!